Monday, April 30, 2007

feeling alive

Spring is , after all, a time of renewal... so I'm in a good position to be starting over , so to speak...
The weather changes like my shoes... on one minute, off the next....that is New England for ya...
The sun is so powerful to me... I"m a different person when its shining through... gives me such energy its amazing...
Today I began getting myself more fit.... 5 weeks have passed since the miscarriage and surgery and I"m ready to begin anew....
Jon and I have increased our veggie/fruit intake and started switching to more lean meats, whole grains and high fiber foods...
I began doing a 1 mile walk 4 x week allowing me flexibility to just sit some days....
Once I get back up and around , I'll switch to 2 miles again... and try that daily!

The amazing Ali Edwards wrote in her blog today
"Want to join me in taking your life-temperature this week? Do you feel balanced? Do you feel alive? What small changes can you make to feel more alive and present? I'd love to read ways both big and small you have "
and she goes on and on with some beautiful and inspiring messages for us to re-check and take our life temperature...

I always have felt that balance was the key to everything in life... learning how to accept the bad with the good, enjoy the guilt at times and yet respect yourself and make sound decisions.... give and take... I have always tried to live by this motto, yet I think I can do better at accepting the good .. I have become a little cynical and put up a wall lately.
I am going to build myself up by allowing myself to be liked by first acknowledging to myself that I"m okay.
I will lose weight.
I will be liked by different kinds of people
I am an artist.
I create because I love.
You don't need money and a title to be someone important.
( THis one will be hard for me!)
I will breathe deeper
I will play harder.
I will laugh more
I am strong.
I hope you join me in renewing .... faith in myself, faith in each other, and starting to feel more alive..
Kim

Sunday, April 29, 2007

ssssssooooooo tired......

I had a long but very fun day yesterday... stamping, shopping, visiting and a night out with nana watching Manhattan at the Bay.... High School play with Broadway theme, talent ... wow, are these kids dynamic... the shows are always so fun!
Then we went to a few rooms for food and drink.... and were home by 11pm.... Only to be awaken at 1 am by Ry getting sick downstairs.... still don't know how I recognize that sound while sleeping... just a mom thing, I guess....
Anyways we've been up and taking cat naps all day..... I don't do well with little sleep....
so he is staying home with me tomorrow just to keep my eyes on him.... he stopped vomiting and is drinking watered down juice and milk.... doesn't yet have an appetite.....
something so scary though about taking care of a little sickling that can't talk.... makes it that much more scary!
It will be an early bedtime for mommy and friends tonight!!!!!!!

PS. I was also so excitedto get a call last night from Deb Mitchell from Scrap Talk a huge scrap site.... She wondered if I was still interested in being on their design team!!!!!!!!!! How exciting to come home to that phone message!!!!!!
Peace ....

Kimo

Friday, April 20, 2007

All American designer.......

Yep, I'm so excited to announce that I was just offered a position on the All American Scrapbook Co. sites design team!!!!!!!! Yoo hoo... they have some great events and some wonderful products for sale at their store.....


Also, I was asked to be a guest designer for a Page in Time scrapbooking for the month of July.... very exciting... their kits are wonderfully full!!!!!!!

Spent the day today at the park with the kiddos (and everyone else in Rhode Island... first official day of spring (not really, but weather wise that is!)

Then we went to lunch and Niccos school and the kids played, ran around , got tons of fresh air... love that! and
mom is pooped...

off to get a BBQ started.... yep, its that time of year! Yeah....

more pics tomorrow....

Kim

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

vacation has been a little of this...











and this and this.... we spent these very rainy and windy few first days of vacation doing a little finger painting, watching Getty regain strength in her back paws, play Princess/Fairies and mommy had alot of scrapping time too...
Getty has four paws on the floor... yeah.... only $200 to fix that!!!!!!
Check out Naomi and Erins "power sources" on their heads!!! hee hee... so imaginative... love it!
and this picture is Mia's beautiful finger painting... she has the most precious tiny hands even for three... chubby and sweet... I loved washing her little hands after... too cute!
and Ryan is adjusting well this week to no school.... a few more days to go!
Peace,
Kimo








wanna see.....

Monday, April 09, 2007

Easter recap







a few eggs, a pink frilly hat, a little Hokey Pokey ...... a typically wonderful Easter!






Sunday, April 08, 2007

Prayers for a beautiful Easter

God of all life, we rejoice with you in the day of deaths defeat. To the bewildered eyes of your disciplies, Christs death looked like tragic loss, but you turned it into a great gain. Give us the faith you gave them to believe that, through the creative power of your love, even the greatest tragedy can be transformed and become life giving. May our faith grow throughout the fifty days of this Easter season as we pray to embrace your gift of new and everlasting life.
Amen....


prayer from Living Faith booklet (daily Catholic devotions) Ap/May June 07

Hope you all have a blessed Easter today.....

I'll be back later with some pictures to share of the kiddos hunting eggs and enjoying baskets...

Love, peace and
Allelujah!

Kimmie

Friday, April 06, 2007

thanks to everyone

for all the support, messages and well wishes....
I"m doing okay.... went in for the D&C yesterday.... no complications but this time I had alot of pain/cramping after.... I think my body is already coming out of the pregnancy faster than it did before... I slept really good last night and am up and around this am....
we are just taking it easy...
My neighbor is doing a egg hunt for the kids today next door and we will color eggs tonight....
We are celebrating Easter Saturday since Jon has to work all day Sunday....

One day at a time.... didn't mourn this much yet.... I actually wished i knew someone with a baby... just feel like holding one now....

thanks again friends and family for all the support.... its what helps me get through this....

Kim

Wednesday, April 04, 2007

another emotional rollercoaster

for us to go through.... I just got the call from the doctor..... We were hoping to report good news to everyone on Easter.... On March 4th , I found out I was pregnant again! Jon and I have been keeping it a secret and I have been super tired.... mega nauseous and generally getting rounder by the second! ( already!)I went in to see the Lyme specialist and another doctor who assured me that while I'ld be super duper extra tired for this pregnancy that everything else was going great.....Unfortunately, I went for the ultrasound ( I should be 9 weeks) yesterday but the image was measuring super little... so much so, they actually told me to go have blood drawn... I must have just gotten pregnant???? so anyways, after the blood tests came back, the HCG levels are very high (17,000) indicating that I should have a 9 week old fetus and they could not detect any fetal growth whatsoever... so even though, i am pregnant with a placenta, bag of fluids, etc.... and have all the symptoms, there is no (and never was, any baby develope.)So , we are left with the options of waiting for the miscarriage or scheduling the surgery...,.Here we go again.... Jon and I are extremely sad.... these last few weeks (though secretive!lol) have been the happiest we have had in a long time...But we are blessed to have our beautiful Ryan and Erin and really trying to just focus on moving on... our family of four.... possibly taking a vacation and making plans for upcoming "fun" things to look forward too....Thanks ahead of time for all the prayers, support and guidance you have all given us in the past... It really means alot...Peace,Kim

Monday, April 02, 2007

no good news to report.....

but not much anything new either.... will report in in a few days with the result of more blood work.... please please... keep me in your prayers....


Kim

prayers for me today......

and I'm hoping for some good news at the doctors office this afternoon..... be back later for an update!

Peace,
Kim