Sunday, October 28, 2007

what an emotional week....

this has been...

First, My Aunt Lily (dad's eldest sister) passed away which is very hard to see my dad have to grieve again. I know its a part of life, but its never easy to watch those you love so sad and down. I truly believed that at 83 she had lived such a rich life, travelled the world, and touched so many people positively that I myself, have had a hard time grieving or feeling sad.
I chose not to attend the funeral service for many reasons. That was a difficult decision for me to make though and still trying to put my feelings in order about it all.

Second, Some great news... my sister in law Liz (Jons baby sis) is pregnant.... we got to visit with her as she came home this weekend to shop with her mom for maternity clothes, etc... so fun.. boy, I miss those mom and daughter days!
I gave her my "baby" tote, the one that had everything baby related that I packed up after the second miscarriage and wanted to just get it out of the house...
They were so cute in wanting me to go through it first, just in case and so I did, and wow....
did not expect the rush of emotions to come ... I was a little embarrsed and mad at myself... I truly did not want Liz to see me sad or cry... this is a happy time for her and I couldn't be more excited... just wasn't prepared for what hit me when I saw some old blankets , stuff my mom had made, etc... even some dresses from when I was a baby...
i know I should have wanted to keep it all but I just don't... at this point in time with both babies and my mother in heaven... I truly just want to move on and not hold on to the sentimental dresses, etc that my mother would have wanted me to have...
Not to mention that by the time ERin or ry would have any kids, those outfits would be pretty old, yellow, etc...
Maybe that is how I grieve, but holding on to them is just too painful and I'm ready to move on...

Thirdly, its that time of year again when the falling leaves make me so nervous of all that I have to do in the yard and THE IEP..... just saying it,gives me a ulcer...
It doesn't matter how great a program your kid is in, or how far they have come that year...
NO PARENT should have to go through them.... as positive as the school will make it... Jon and I still find ourselves leaving , crying the entire way home... (I always joke that this is why they ship our kids out of district so the parents have to time to grieve ont he way to / from the school...)
Its only natural to compare and look at the state standard (even for special education) and find that your son just doesn't even fall half way in the standard.... and I KNOW>>>> I shouldn't do that... you shouldn't think negatively and all that... well... walk in my shoes and tell me how NOT to think about all the things I would like to see him do or that I feel he should HAVE BEEN doing all this time...Going through an IEP only brings up the grief over and over again... and its very hard....
but the more I do , the more I am becoming a "don't mess with me or my kid" kinda mommy and I guess I 've learned to feel sad and then turn that into something to fight with... so in the end its all good... just painful


sorry for the long post... just feels good to let it out sometimes and let everyone know the reality of what I'm going through lately...

On a positive note... the air is super crisp.... we went to a spooky zoo sunday today with kids in costume... I think all of Rhode Island is there... lol but we had fun and I got some great pics...

I also had a successful girl scout Halloween party and the girls laughed hysterical... Its so fun watching this age (6&7) experiencing things like bobbing for apples for the first time... amazing to watch!

I have TONS of pictures to upload and promise I"ll get some stuff to look up very soon...
thanks for the ear...
Kim

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Whatcha... doin??????????


a whole latta nuddin here.....

Erins soccer game got cancelled.. which is ironic because the sun is finally out after a week of dismal (too warm) and rainy weather!

Jon is doing the hunting thing....

Im depressed.... may take the kiddos out for ice cream or something... bored!!!!!!!!

Finally broke into my Scarlet Lime kit... its amazing... sigh... need to do more...

and can't forget my other fave... Studio Calico...

pics of those layouts coming soon...

peace, and someone have something fun for me to do??? lol

kimo

Saturday, October 13, 2007

I am a winner!!!!!!!!!

I played a little game on the Making Memories blog and I won... how exciting!!!!!!!!!!
check it out here:http://www.makingmemories.typepad.com/


and then I got my Studio Calico and Scarlet Lime kits in the mail.... they are even prettier in real life.... such amazing stuff I"m totally inspired!

Scrappy goodness today...off to a evening birthday bash for ERins newest bestest! lol
then home to hopefully play with my new toys!

Kim

Friday, October 12, 2007

in honor of my mom

this October... since its Breast Cancer Awareness Month and all.... I decided not to contribute again to a organization (even though funding is still needed!) or do another walk that tends to really depress me... I cry the entire time doing it... I decided I would honor her by doing what she used to nag me to do which was to take care of myself... and my health...
I joined Curves...
http://curves.com/
so proud of myself and very excited to get started on a positive, quick, no excuse type workout... and ready to change how I feel about myself, my body and my health...

Here's to you momma!

Kim

Thursday, October 11, 2007

This is the only time....











I can brag about living in NEw ENgland.... isn't it just beautiful... in between the cloudy skies, chilly nights and rainy skies in October... this is our view...




enjoy!








Kim

all done....


REMINISC-ing for awhile... since I didn't win :( the contest... but I still love the papers and projects I created... gets harder and harder to convince myself that I need to keep going though....

Here is one I did to cheer myself up...

and since today is MAT"S birthday..... I thought he would enjoy a real reminisce of this picture from way back when... check out the 70's collars ... yikes...

Love this pic... how come I"m so serious??? lol

until later... peace...



and HAPPY BIRTHDAY mafff-few!



kimmie

Saturday, October 06, 2007

a little mini album using...REMINISCE papers











been having a blast playing with my Reminisce papers... they scrap themselves....
this is a little book about me..... .. chipboard album and ribbons are Maya Road,... papers Reminisce...
to see more of my work with REminisce products see the next three posts....
tfl
kim

BOOOOOOO!!!!!! from Reminisce....





























love love these lines from Reminisce.... created this little mini book, some layouts and a bunch of cards to "spook" those I love....







from OCt 31, and Witches Brew lines...














Monkey see.... Monkey do....











More papers from delicious Reminisce paper line... those cute little monkeys!








I"ve been reminiscing......











here are more entries for the Design Team contest at




reminisce.typepad.com




wish me luck!








Projects from the Snow Globe line

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

went to RAH scrapbooking today...







with CArol... thanks for the nudge to get out on this dreary day today.... and we both filled our baskets as usual... sigh... love that store....



lots of scrappy goodness.... off to give the kiddos a bath and then I'm scrapping...!

so tired of the drama....

in the scrappy world......I mean really ladies... you are all mothers of children.... wives, co workers and professionals.... and I"m wwwwaaaaaaaayyyyyy too old for all the drama.....

on a lighter note... have you seen the dollar spot at Target.... if you like The Office tv show(my personal fave) you need to check it out....information is power..... and the shrutes produce very thirsty babies... thats all i"m gonna say! rofl

kim

Monday, October 01, 2007

wanna come and party???

cause there is alot of great stuff going in in scrappy land this week....

esp. at

Scrap in Style TV .com....... you should check it out!!!!!!!!!!!